New Years resolutions-because of course you have to have them

       I actually haven't made any new years resolutions for many years, there is nothing worse for me than starting something and then letting it dwindle, I feel untrue to myself.  But this year I think maybe I'll give it a try and cut myself some slack if I can't keep up with them.
       I think most everyone puts exercising on the list, and it has to be on mine for sure. I avoid looking in mirror, I don't want to be negative and down on myself I know I had two kids very close together and have not had the possibility of going to a gym of any sort for a couple of years. I'm not fat, I weigh less than I did before I had Isabella when I was actually in shape, but its not muscle weight. I don't know how I will fit it in, I was seeing if maybe my husband wanted to buy some weights for himself and I would take advantage and use them, but my plan did not go well and I almost ruined our New Years eve, we have a gym in our club house so he will go there, and it makes the most sense that he does. Yoga, maybe that can be my plan until I am able to go to a gym. So yoga it is well yoga poses I don't see myself getting any rhythmic breathing going on with them running around, yoga and squats, because apparently squats are the solution to most leg-butt problems.
       Potty train Isabella. She is one of the most strong minded, set in her ways people I know. She got it into her head that she hurt her foot one day and she refused to walk for almost 2 days, even at night when she was half asleep and came to our bed, she came crawling, she wasn't trying to get attention, she actually convinced herself this little 2 year old that she had hurt her foot, if I didn't know her better I would have been worried. The other day I was going to change her diaper which she hates, she will freak out if she has a drop of water on her shirt but a wet diaper she will endure all day, I called her and she was running away so I said I was going to count to three, she knows that after I say 3 there is always a consequence so that always works like a charm but I saw her get stiff as a board, clench her fists, she did not want to come but was afraid of the consequence and she said to herself, "I won't give in, I won't give up", where did she hear those words?.  Anyway I had a huge fiasco trying to potty train her when she turned 2, I've potty trained kids before and it usually is not rocket science, she understood perfectly, but REFUSED to use the potty, after three days of cleaning up pee and poop from almost every surface, I was alone with both of them in the house and so angry and frustrated at her I told her "fine be a baby and use diapers, I'm not going to try to force you to go on the potty" she hugged me and said "thank you Mommy", how do you respond to that? My mom counseled me to let it go for a few months, so I have, she tells her dolls to go on the potty she tells Cami, and she will sit on the potty but she will not go in the potty. They say 3 is the golden age for some, so I will take it up then in the summer and try it again, I mean everyone gets potty trained at some point, right?
       Be more patient. 90% of any fights I have with my husband are when we are going out and I'm impatient, I get knots in my stomach when I feel people are not going fast enough, and I just can't understand why we said we were leaving at 10:00 and its 10:05 and we are still finishing up things. I feel like Rabbit from the Winnie the Pooh cartoons, I just wish things would always go according to schedule. I have been making an effort to do better and I actually have done better the past few times. So I need to be more relaxed and go with the flow. I don't want my kids to grow up and remember me as a stressed out, sharp tongued woman.
      Figure out why Camilla cries so much. Maybe I just need to make my peace with it, but I want to figure out if something is bothering her and what I can do to help her. She does have problems with constipation so maybe her stomach bothers her, she pooped yesterday after 4 days and slept a little better. In any case when I am able I will be taking her back to the doctor to see if its anything else or just something we have to weather through till she grows out of it. She has such a fun and sunny personality when she isn't crying.  We tried to help her go back to sleep on her own the other night, after 2 hours of her hysterically screaming (we were in the room with her), she vomited 3 times not because she was sick but because she was freaking out so much because she wanted to be carried, we figured maybe she just needs to sleep with us for now.
     I'll stick with those three for now, more than resolutions I think they are To Do's.

     

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