Soft granola balls and my mom came to visit

I have been very negligent of my blog, I keep meaning to write but I just never seem to get around to it. Most days I feel like I am moving in slow motion, which is not the norm for me, now at 13 weeks pregnant I feel a little more energetic as in it doesn't take me 15 minutes to muster up the courage to get out of bed (seriously, me not being able to get out of bed???) never before, no matter how sick I felt or lazy or tired I have always been able to "rally" and just get up and get on with my day regardless of how I felt, but not now I would try and I was just not physically able, it was a very frustrating feeling. Thankfully now, it only takes me about 5 minutes so I'm improving, I tell my poor kids that they will survive this pregnancy, and it will be my last, I feel like such a failure of a mom most days, it might be better I am squirreled away at home so I won't get judged too harshly by other moms. I pray their eating habits are not destroyed forever and that the amount of videos they watch with not too adversely affect them. 

      I've found a new solution to breakfast, soft granola balls. Isabella was eating granola but was getting increasingly picky about it, she wanted to pour the milk in and it had to be from a specific cup-that's fine, no raisins, no nuts and then she wanted none of the granola balls, so I was having to pick out all these things and if she put too much or too little milk in her bowl it was a whole other drama, till I discovered that she liked the granola raw, so I make them soft granola which is basically blended sesame seeds, I throw in sunflower seeds too, and oats and mix that with coconut oil and honey and then add some rolled oats to it, it gets clumpy and they eat that, I figure well raw is better in any case, the amount of that they are capable of eating is amazing, anyway that has become my go-to breakfast. Now the problem is that Isabella tells me she wants breakfast for lunch and dinner.  My lunches usually go something like this "Isabella do you want hummus or cheese for lunch" and I gingerly open the fridge and pull out the hummus and peel a carrot or two for her, at least some kind of vegetable,  Cami is more of a challenge but she loves peas so she eats lots of those, she also will eat beans when I can heat them up.  I know I should have a good balanced meal for them and just set it there and not give Isabella a choice but honestly right now I just don't feel I can. Dinner I am a little better at, and Daddy is home so he can help me feed them, I have a vegetable soup that they eat and Isabella will eat whatever her Dad eats usually. I can't be too hard on myself it will be better after the baby is born.   

     My mom came for a week in February, it was heaven having her here. I am pretty independent but I was so glad when my mom came to help me for a week. I never thought of her as much of a cook but apparently she is, she would make these really nice meals and set them up all nice for dinner, I think any pregnant woman knows the absolute joy it is to not have to cook.  There were some things that I ate when I was a child and really wanted to eat them like this black rye bread they only make in Holland and my mom had it brought fresh from the bakery that is near my grandmas house, that along with some cheese was my salvation for many weeks. I also wanted these leeks that my mom used to make when I was younger, and she made this delicious broccoli soup with lemon that I also really liked. She brought quiet books which were an instant hit with my kids and I discovered that while Cami is extremely difficult with me, she is much more manageable with other people.  I was sad to see my mom go but she will be back in July and then in September.